new direction

"When God takes something from your grasp, He's not punishing you, but merely opening your hands to receive something better."-anonymous

This quote has brought me some comfort the last several weeks.  God truly does work in mysterious ways.  Just when I thought my life was going along smoothly and everything was in it's right place, the Lord stopped me in my tracks and simple asked, "Will you obey and follow me?"


It's an odd feeling knowing I won't be headed into work tomorrow.  It's officially my first week home, full-time.  It's been a bitter sweet journey making the decision to leave KSL.  A huge leap of faith.  But, a higher power has something different in store for me (and a new door will open new opportunities).  I have thoroughly enjoyed my time there and have learned an unsurmountable depth of knowledge in a field I love.  I have worked hard for my career over the last five years and I will take away many skills, memories, and friends.  But as hard as it is to leave, I get to be home with my sweet boy everyday.  And maybe it's the Lord's way of simply saying, there's a time and a season for all things... slow down and simplify your life.  I can't help but think of Elder Uchtdorf's General Conference talk in October:

Let’s be honest; it’s rather easy to be busy. We all can think up a list of tasks that will overwhelm our schedules. Some might even think that their self-worth depends on the length of their to-do list. They flood the open spaces in their time with lists of meetings and minutia—even during times of stress and fatigue. Because they unnecessarily complicate their lives, they often feel increased frustration, diminished joy, and too little sense of meaning in their lives.

(Dieter F. Uchtdorf, "Of Things That Matter Most", Oct. 2010 LDS General Conference) 

Or Elder Faust's sweet words to his Granddaughters:

But, my dear granddaughters, you cannot do everything well at the same time. You cannot be a 100 percent wife, a 100 percent mother, a 100 percent church worker, a 100 percent career person, and a 100 percent public-service person at the same time. How can all of these roles be coordinated?...“The only answer I come up with is that you can have it sequentially. At one stage you may emphasize career, and at another marriage and nurturing young children, and at any point you will be aware of what is missing. If you are lucky, you will be able to fit everything in.”

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Doing things sequentially—filling roles one at a time at different times—is not always possible, as we know, but it gives a woman the opportunity to do each thing well in its time and to fill a variety of roles in her life.

(James E. Faust, "A Message to my Granddaughters: Becoming Great Women," Ensign, Sept. 1986, 16)

So as I embark on this new journey and new role, I take comfort in knowing that I obediently took a leap of faith when I didn't have all the answers, and now I wait to see what's in store...